Hello everyone who may read this blog post. This almost feels like my last will and testament overall. In any case, I wish to report on how my week 3 went. Besides the slip ups and issues I had with school, I'm more or less realizing how much reddit has controlled what I do with my free time. In a sense, by eliminating it, it feels like as though reddit was a necessary evil. The way to describe it would be that reddit, youtube, facebook, and its complimentary websites were part of a scale, and by eliminating reddit off that scale, the scale readjusted. Now primarily, facebook and youtube control my time wasted and now are forced to be my constant sources of entertainment. This worries me, as rather I realize how bad having such distractions have been, and worrisome as how deep the roots of their control have been me. Its interesting to understand that I may have to arrive to a point where my interest must rely on the newly formed hobbies I must form immediately. I decided to try list...but I'm worried how that list might go, so I'm gonna try to put them down here. Please, comment and describe how your list would be.
List:
-Programming
- Take up violin and/or trumpet
-Traveling/hiking ( going and walking -_-)
- Reading (this is actually extremely tough for me)
- Exercising
- Calling, scheduling, and hanging out with others
- Start to date again (this is another post all together, but it will be done, probably next week)
- Math
- Farming
-Mechanical engineering
- News
- Gymnastics/dancing
- Personal Experiments
This list depicts how exactly I was thinking on what to do and how to do it. I need to start loving to learn again because truthfully, I have lost that love awhile ago. I don't know when my laziness took over my love to learn, or rather whether that relation was always there. I'm worried that I will never love to learn again. However, like any relationship, it takes time, effort, trust, and communication. These are definitely things I must redo and must take time to understand. 2 more weeks, and then begins the true trials of suffering for me. I will come back with more details. For now, I'm still 19 days without reddit and every day is every more harder. I will get back to you...Good bye...and good luck.
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Sunday, January 19, 2014
Sunday, January 12, 2014
Week 2 - the Social Media experiment
So as of January 1st, I have decided to have the New Years Resolution of not going on reddit for a year. For the next 37/38 weeks I will discuss the tribulations, the weirdness, and the depression that goes along with having no distraction given by reddit. By week 10, I will stop browsing imgur/HAWP/roosterteeth/instagram/"porn". By week 20 which will be around June 15th, I will up the score by going no youtube and facebook. This is a personal experiment as I go on to see what happens when a man clearly addicted to internet social media and ADD stops that social medium. I have no started a bet, and even some close friends said to use moderation or not to go cold turkey. I will have to disagree in order to try out my personal experiment. The only thing thing I will not stop is Pandora (for music) and snapchat (because screw you).
As of week 2, I have noticed that the lack of reddit has indeed made me question some habits I have had over the course of the previous years. It has made me question some things like "what am I doing with my life" and "where the fuck am I" a lot more. I have noticed some habitual things forming and the fact that most of the sites I go on is due to reddit or as a condition from reddit. Personally, I have noticed that I have relied a lot on NSFW from reddit for "my own personal reasons", but now I have had to go on the "old" sites to do my bidding. In any case, I have found that this is going to be one of the hardest years for me in many ways, and I might as well make it harder on myself because that is who I am. Its the small steps that make the greatest leaps towards enlightenment...hopefully my small steps will be deemed worthy. I truly am scared about what will happen as I have noticed breaks in my psyche just as of week 2...I know it's silly to be worried about such trivial things like reddit, porn, or even facebook, but I'm starting to realize that I have used many of these social mediums to feel worthy or to feel happy or to feel like I'm a part of a group. I feel like I will lose connection to a lot more people as time moves on because of the constant connection I had with the social media of today. It was nice talking to random middle school people or to old highschool friends, saying "High Five" at random in my chat windo and seeing how to reconnect, but that ability will soon be gone. Slowly, it will all be gone...In any case, this experiment is going to be intense. I will post every week to show my progress, thoughts, and any mental issues I have. Whether I'm using you as a therapist or not is up to you. Thank you for being there.
As of week 2, I have noticed that the lack of reddit has indeed made me question some habits I have had over the course of the previous years. It has made me question some things like "what am I doing with my life" and "where the fuck am I" a lot more. I have noticed some habitual things forming and the fact that most of the sites I go on is due to reddit or as a condition from reddit. Personally, I have noticed that I have relied a lot on NSFW from reddit for "my own personal reasons", but now I have had to go on the "old" sites to do my bidding. In any case, I have found that this is going to be one of the hardest years for me in many ways, and I might as well make it harder on myself because that is who I am. Its the small steps that make the greatest leaps towards enlightenment...hopefully my small steps will be deemed worthy. I truly am scared about what will happen as I have noticed breaks in my psyche just as of week 2...I know it's silly to be worried about such trivial things like reddit, porn, or even facebook, but I'm starting to realize that I have used many of these social mediums to feel worthy or to feel happy or to feel like I'm a part of a group. I feel like I will lose connection to a lot more people as time moves on because of the constant connection I had with the social media of today. It was nice talking to random middle school people or to old highschool friends, saying "High Five" at random in my chat windo and seeing how to reconnect, but that ability will soon be gone. Slowly, it will all be gone...In any case, this experiment is going to be intense. I will post every week to show my progress, thoughts, and any mental issues I have. Whether I'm using you as a therapist or not is up to you. Thank you for being there.
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