So as of January 1st, I have decided to have the New Years Resolution of not going on reddit for a year. For the next 37/38 weeks I will discuss the tribulations, the weirdness, and the depression that goes along with having no distraction given by reddit. By week 10, I will stop browsing imgur/HAWP/roosterteeth/instagram/"porn". By week 20 which will be around June 15th, I will up the score by going no youtube and facebook. This is a personal experiment as I go on to see what happens when a man clearly addicted to internet social media and ADD stops that social medium. I have no started a bet, and even some close friends said to use moderation or not to go cold turkey. I will have to disagree in order to try out my personal experiment. The only thing thing I will not stop is Pandora (for music) and snapchat (because screw you).
As of week 2, I have noticed that the lack of reddit has indeed made me question some habits I have had over the course of the previous years. It has made me question some things like "what am I doing with my life" and "where the fuck am I" a lot more. I have noticed some habitual things forming and the fact that most of the sites I go on is due to reddit or as a condition from reddit. Personally, I have noticed that I have relied a lot on NSFW from reddit for "my own personal reasons", but now I have had to go on the "old" sites to do my bidding. In any case, I have found that this is going to be one of the hardest years for me in many ways, and I might as well make it harder on myself because that is who I am. Its the small steps that make the greatest leaps towards enlightenment...hopefully my small steps will be deemed worthy. I truly am scared about what will happen as I have noticed breaks in my psyche just as of week 2...I know it's silly to be worried about such trivial things like reddit, porn, or even facebook, but I'm starting to realize that I have used many of these social mediums to feel worthy or to feel happy or to feel like I'm a part of a group. I feel like I will lose connection to a lot more people as time moves on because of the constant connection I had with the social media of today. It was nice talking to random middle school people or to old highschool friends, saying "High Five" at random in my chat windo and seeing how to reconnect, but that ability will soon be gone. Slowly, it will all be gone...In any case, this experiment is going to be intense. I will post every week to show my progress, thoughts, and any mental issues I have. Whether I'm using you as a therapist or not is up to you. Thank you for being there.
What are you going to do during summer if you have no facebook available to you?
ReplyDeleteSo I know for a fact I'm going to try to take the MCAT sometime, so I'll try to study that, but if not so. I probably will either start writing letters to people, find a job, and/or try to hang out with any close friends I still have in contact with. I don't really know for sure actually, I didn't really think it out like that. I was more going for an "improvise and hope for the best", but as I think mroe about it, my heart kind of sinks a bit wondering what will happen to the people around me. However, this must happen because it must be a thing. I will have the will of stone for this, and I will always report.
ReplyDeleteI also have to comment on this...If a project requires me to use any form of social media such as facebook or twitter or youtube, I will update why and what for. I won't lie to you guys, and I will report whether I have broken anything...I promise you I will try to do my best to keep this up. Thank you.
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